"He did not say you would not be troubled, you would not be tempted,
you would not be distressed, but He did say you would not beovercome." - St. Josemaria Escriva
you would not be distressed, but He did say you would not beovercome." - St. Josemaria Escriva
Driving home from the hospital radiology lab it started to rain but it was sunny. I'm sure you've seen it before just as I have. I looked up and saw the black clouds surrounding the blue sky. I pulled over, got out of the van and stood in the rain taking pictures with my phone. This picture perfectly illustrates our life right now.
June 19 marked the end of an earthly life for our baby Peregrine Philippa. Weeks later my health reports came back "abnormal". Positives where there should be "you're super healthy!". More questions, doctor appointments, lab work. Now we wait for the specialist to fit me in. We know it's some kind of autoimmune issue we just don't know what it is exactly. I feel good overall. On and off pain in my right hand which has taught me how to do more things left handed. Not a bad thing to learn.
Saturday we had the memorial for both Margaret and Peregrine since they were lost so close together. I'm so grateful that we have access to this beautiful final resting spot for our babies.
On Monday we learned that there is another mass in a different part of Jesse's lung. That's all we know. He had some follow up testing today. After we get those results we can hopefully make a plan. Some of you may remember we went through this a couple of years ago and the result was removal of the upper lobe of the lung. It was very painful for Jesse and my prayer is that he won't have to endure that again. Please pray with me?
In the meantime the blue skies and sunshine radiates through the black clouds and rain. Frances turned 5 and Katie graduated from high school. There are countless, COUNTLESS other blessings for which we are grateful each and everyday. Our faith and our prayer warrior friends help keep peace in our hearts during this time of uncertainty. When I start to panic I receive a text from a friend. Today's message "Be still and know that I am God" Psalm 46:10. Indeed You are. And I trust You. This blog is not nearly as well written as I had hoped it would be (perhaps I thought someone else would write it for me?) but it is a plea for prayers. Thank you all and I will update as I am able.
“Happiness isn’t something that depends on our surroundings…it’s something we make inside ourselves.” - Corrie Ten Boom
Katie and I at her graduation party.
